I am in total, complete count down mode. I know this would upset Dr. Strait because he'd tell me I'm wishing away time, but still. I have 5 school days left of student teaching, 10 days til graduation, today is my Gate 4 interview, my portfolio is finished, and I'm getting married in 2 months. And as exciting and awesome as all this is, I have an ever growing ball of anxiety threatening to eat me alive.
I DON'T HAVE A JOB nor do I have an interview. I've applied at multiple schools, my classmates are getting interviews, the time frame is running out, and all I've gotten are polite emails saying they're considering all their options. Heck, I didn't even get an email back from the school I really want to work at in spite of the 24 hour mandatory response period at Fayette County.
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm doing anything right at all. People keep telling me (especially my classmates who are being interviewed) that "He has a plan for me" and "He will get me through this on His power." As much as I hate to say it, He needs to hurry up. I know that's rude and I shouldn't get upset with God about this, but if there's some master plan for my life, I'd love to know at least a small part of it now. I know I'm meant to go to Haiti...some time, but until then what do I do with my life? I've spent four years on a teaching degree only to find out that no one wants English teachers and they're not too happy with ESL teachers either, despite telling me that it's a "shortage" area. I'm going crazy here. Add that to the never ending demands that come with student teaching, trying to get any details in order for my wedding, finishing my registry, finding a job after graduation...I'm gonna drop dead from stress at this point. Poor Dave, he's putting up with so much crazy right now.
I was thinking of you today and had to track down your blog because we all know that facebook doesn't really tell much about people's lives.
ReplyDeleteA lot of the teachers graduating from CU are in the same sort of position as you, and the ones who have found jobs have done so by knowing people involved in the school and/or hiring decisions. I don't know what you could do with that information, but if you have any teachers among your circle of friends (or your family's friends), talk to them and see what they know.
I know how much you want to teach and I really hope you can find a teaching job soon--and if one doesn't come up soon, I hope you find a job you can like in the meantime.
Good luck!